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The Migraine Life – Waking up into it

February 19th, 2008

My eyes are not open yet. The alarm is calling with its insistent “nature sounds.” Supposed to be a spring breeze; it sounds like a blistering gale. I crack an eyelid, reach and press the snooze. Do I still have a migraine? Not sure yet but I know I don’t want to wake up.

Danny rolls over. “Needa lilmor sleep,” I mumble. Opening my mouth and enunciating would be a mistake. I catch the elusive tails of my dream – something about books and a cat. Drift into vagueness. Ten minutes passes like no time. More roaring wind. I reach to turn it off, eyes still closed. Danny gets up. I roll onto my back, checking. Crick in the neck. Roll the head gently on the neck. Body is okay. Little point of pain lodged over the left temple. Tiny. Like a bad little seed. “You should have taken the Imitrex last night,” I chide myself. But I don’t know. There is no absolute answer.

Sun is pouring in around the edges of the blinds. The covers are warm. My husband is cheerful. He is wishing me good morning. I am stretching gently, still unsure. If I move will the seed grow? I have slept enough, but should I be getting up? Should my responsibilities be pulling me into the day? Should my fear of the next migraine pull me back to bed? Where do good sense and balance lie?  I don’t know the answer. But I know I want to get up, I want to get to my good work, I want to live my life. I stand and start my stretches. Pain seed
does not go away, but neither does it grow. Still dormant. I move into my day.

Will I have to reset the migraine ticker? What will I write in my migraine diary? Maybe the pain will leave entirely. It may stay; it may or may not grow. I will get down on the floor and stretch. I will take all my supplements and medications. I will try very hard to eat right. I will meditate before work. I will plan my day and stick as best I can to my plan. I will take a walk, pray and let go of fear and anxiety. Ten minutes at a time, or an hour, or a day. Let me appreciate each moment without pain.

- Megan Oltman

“How are you feeling?” “Okay.” “Just okay?” “Okay is not bad, I’ll take it.”

Tags: managing life with migraine, migraine, post-drome
Posted in Musings | Comments (2)

2 Responses to “The Migraine Life – Waking up into it”

1. Karen Says:
   February 20th, 2008 at 3:58 pm

   Hi Megan,

   Woke up with a headache this morning and have been dealing with it all day. Have taken medication and tried all my other remedies and its still there. Thank goodness I am self-employed. I would have had to leave work if I had a boss. Unfortunately,I’ve only been able to accomplish a few minor things today, and none of them are the things that actually earn me money.

   Thought reading your blog would help. I’ve never really talked about my headaches with anyone befoe and it is great to know other people’s lives are as affected as mine.

2. Megan Oltman Says:
   February 20th, 2008 at 5:08 pm

   Hi Karen - thanks for stopping by. I hope it helps. I know it makes a big difference for me knowing i’m not alone. Yesterday (when I wrote this post) I was fine - the seed did not grow. Today I had the migraine. Go figure. Today my meds seem to be helping. Knock wood. (Picture me knocking on my forehead.)
   - Megs

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